In school, Off to TN in hopes of REJUVENATION

This is Anna Rae, she is almost 3 1/2 - she started preschool on Sept. 4 and she is a "big girl". She likes to carry her backpack and her lunch all by herself and is happy to tell her mommy that she does NOT need any help.

Sniff sniff - when did she get so big and independent? I count my blessings. She had a wonderful day yesterday and asked this morning if we were going to school - we weren't, but luckily baby Emily was coming over, so we did not have a breakdown. And now, we get to go to school tomorrow and Friday. Yeehaw!

I am off to TN tomorrow, Nashville to be exact. This is a big deal to me, okay, partially b/c it is Nashville and I have NEVER been there and have been a die hard country music lover since 10th grade...but really it is a big deal b/c more than once satan has tried his darndest to get me to back out. You see, I am going with a group of ladies from my church to the Deeper Still conference with Beth Moore, Priscilla (can't remember her last name), Kay Arthur - and I am a huge Beth Moore and Kay Arthur fan.
I signed up back in Feb. or March WITH two friends.
They backed out sometime in May. I stayed signed up, then found out that we wouldn't be in the audotorium, but live fed across the street. Hmmmm, kind of like watching a DVD??? I tried again to back out and kept getting talked into staying. Mind you at this point I know two names on the list, know their faces but have not spoken to them. As far as I can tell, I am the youngest by about, oh at least 15 yrs. I kind of forgot about it. Figured I could just count my $47 a loss if Sept. 6 came and I decided not to go.
By Monday I was having panic attacks of sorts - or yesterday I guess that was. I am in a room with 1 person I kind of know, there will be a totlal of 4 of us. I am riding in a van with the same 1 person I KIND OF know....going to Nashville...with one day free, I sent an email with ideas of outings to my unknown group of friends, no one responded. AGHHHHHHH. I showed up at Bible study yesterday and said, I don't want to go. I don't . What started out as this awesome trip to see Beth Moore, in Nashville, with friends, on my birthday is turning into a stomach wrenching, anxiety ridden, don't want to do it trip. And they all said, "GO".
Some were honest saying they admitted they couldn't do it themselves but that they knew I should. That it was evident Satan was stepping all over this thing. So, here I sit, procrastinating in packing or anything related to this trip because I am scared out of my mind. I am scared to go "alone"....
But I know I am going. I know I need rejuvenated. I know I need QUIET time with God. I know I have a broken heart that only God can piece back together, and I will not let satan have his way.

So, I am off to TN and I will talk to you when I get back.

(Bo is good, just ornary):) and my mom in law and dad in law are coming to do day time baby sitting TH/Fri while Jake works, and yes I will be 29 on Sat. while in Nashville with my stranger friends! Pray for some peace on my heart please :)

Much love